another reason I blog
In the side chapel when I was consumed in prayer/tears – or was it in the car park at terminal 7 when I was ditto? – it occurred to me, or was communicated to me, that if I want to find the real deal again, I have to be deeply honest about who I am and what my deepest longings are. I need to live the real me, not a fake me. I need to strive to be more and more honest, deeper and deeper every day. So maybe this blog can be part of that. It was through Casey that I found the last 13 years, and even though things don’t happen twice the same way (says Aslan to Lucy), Casey might be my channel of deepest truth, or one way into it.
“Oh dear, oh dear,” said Lucy. “And I was so pleased at finding you again. And I thought you’d let me stay. And I thought you’d come roaring in and frighten all the enemies away – like the last time. And now everything is going to be horrid.”
“It’s hard for you, little one,” said Aslan. “But things never happen the same way twice. It has been hard for us all in Narnia before now.”
Lucy buried her head in his mane to hide from his face. But there must have been magic in his mane. She could feel lion-strength going into her.
Prince Caspian, “The Return of the Lion”
March 18th, 2009 at 1:01 am
Sometimes in the face of what you’ve gone through and are going through I don’t know what to say. And so I read in silence, sometimes crying a bit myself.
But whatever your reasons are for being so honest and showing Casey to the world like this, I thank you and feel all the richer for it.
March 18th, 2009 at 6:08 am
I found this moving and very useful to me. Thanks for sharing.